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Fool!

"people like to watch other people"

max-ed alcohol. stoom overdosed. bored sober.

all the reasons to let loose, make fool of oneself.

one cant make fool not unless one's already a fool. myself.

clip : gone case josh with shafshaf as vocal

a fool first intrigue oneself, captivate others second.

life's too sarcastic to be taken seriously.

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something random : 3 stooms!

dance = sex?

the videos are horizontal and yes, they're supposed to be vertical, i aint no dumb-dumb, okay? i KNOW! instead of saying, "oh im lazy to edit them to the right position", i'll just say, "OKAY! im a little bit video editing challenged!". happy?! Pfffts.

anyway,

some say, you can tell what/how a guy is like having sex by the way he strut his moves on the dancefloor.

if that is so, imagine how most (OZ angmoh) men are in bed (or wherever you're doing it) if they dance like this,




no? not a pretty little sight? too little action on the lower body? too much boxing action?

imagine how most asian (ahbeng) men are like when they dance like this,




no? certainly not the way you imagine the sex is going to be. rough, and fast, but too much action on just the head shaking? too little elsewhere important?

imagine how some of the male species who can do a little something like this (or maybe better),

yes? a gigantic sign with bright lights bordering it says this dude dances well, he must be really good in bed (or wherever you're doing it). imagine scissor action. imagine doggy action. imagine alot of things.

imagine, but think again. the reason he dances well may be because ... hmmmm ... i dont know ... he's sleeping with another man!?!

HAH!

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something i said : " you're only ugly if you're not better looking than anybody! "

cibai motherfucker!

disclaimer : i realized by writing this post, i make myself even more so vulnerable to people's thoughts of my "sexuality". long has it been a topic that heats up any conversations behind my back, but frankly saying - i have not given a single shit loads of care.

i think im out of my mind.

let's just say I'M homosexual. gay. fag. queer. cibai motherfucker.

[i refuse the usual "i have a friend ..." because we all fuckin know that "friend" is none other than the one saying it.]

so, I'M gay. let's just say i am.

what is it to you?

the only thing that separates me from the heterosexual male is this - my sexual preference towards men, men who have the same tendency.

the only thing that separates me from most of YOU is this - YOU cannot accept the simple fact of life.

just because i dont fuck chicks. just because i fuck "dudes". sex is sex. sex is no longer the sacred act of reproduction. seriously, the biggest worry on any dudes' head is to get the lady pregnant when it comes to most sex. so, i choose to have sex with other gay men, pregnant ladies out of the list, but heck, in with the HIV.

okay. im out of my mind.

so, I'M gay. right.

i think straight men should thank God for gay men. if we're all straight, i pity the ugly boys who wont stand a chance of hitting it on with chicks. you lucky those pretty boys like it up the bottom. and the fact of the matter is, even if we play straight, chances are we still get `em chicks! HAH!

so, im still gay, right. let's just say i am.

its not because we're so much intune with our feminine side, its simply because we LISTEN and we take TIME to understand them chicks, while most men just wanna get straight down to business. everything is straight for straight men. metrosexual or ubersexual, those are the ones intune with their feminine side. HAH!

so anyway, lets stop this gay shit.

too much saying, but i think it all comes down to this - i am in my right to be one. you are in your right not to accept one.

that said - the world does not only revolves around you!

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something random : i changed my mind. i think brunettes are hot!

to love, impossible!

the religion of self : trust is the foundation of love.
the contradiction of self : persisting this love although in great doubts.
note to self : love is fucked up!

" this thing they call love is just one fucked up whirlwind of fucked up emotions! "

> (Josh, 2006)

no, i didnt get fucked and got left out in the cold, according to taugey's belief. i am not bitter with anger, rather very much delusional with confusion. contrary to taugey's belief, im just frustrated with the whole figuring out what the fuck the other person is thinking about.

i was not born with the ability to read minds. so what the fuck?!

i was not born with the knowledge to comprehend all body languages. so what the fuck?!

i was not born with the wisdom to completely understand people, particularly this person i whole heartedly adore! (now say it with me), SO WHAT THE FUCK?!

i dont normally go gaga easily over someone. im rock solid on that. although, i did say -

" no matter how solid the ground i stand, i can still fall at the wake of an earthquake! "

> (Josh, 2006)

the question still remains : do i go through this, may it be the most of pain, knowing deep down its worth it, regardless the outcome?

i once answered yes. last night it became a no. now, it remains again a question.

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something random : with the exception of friday as part of the weekend, it (the weekend) has been a pretty sober one! (something someone who knows me will understand!)

something more random : i took a dump (shit) while munching on a mcdonald's sausage egg mcmuffin once. just so you know, it was not deliberate, i was pissed (drunk) but unfortunately, it still lingers freshly in my memory!

addict

" i said i'm an addict. i didn't say i had a problem. i pay my bills ... i function. "

(House, 2006)

i could not have thought of a better way to say it.

some people "worry" about my choice of lifestyle. they think i'm "overdoing" my nocturnal evil deeds. they think my bond with narcotics is "killing" me.

i'm still alive am i? i still make time for everyone haven't i? i still friggin FUNCTION!

back at `cha!

yellow

DISCLAIMER : i am colour blind. this post is meant for person(s) who makes colour a reason to differentiate human from another.

" there's a reason why they have one child per family policy in asia, because they're too many of them .. " [ some ang-moh, 2006 ]

right. i cannot agree more. yellow. brown. billions of us!

" .. sweat shops .. " [ same ang-moh, 2006 ]

right.

apparently, we (asians) make too many babies till we cant support such a big family that we have to send the kids out in the big cruel world earning money.

get your facts right BUDDY!

do this math. say they're 400 million pregnant "asian" women this year, how many babies will be produce? 400 friggin million. say these batch of asian women are to produce only 1 baby in their life time, it still wont change the fact tht they ARE gonna be alot of us.

i just dont get why "asians" are so much of a problem. apparently, we own the smallest penis among the male species, we have the least of physical sex, and we're still your biggest worry?

WHAT THE FUCK?!?!

sweat shops. right. we're POOR! yes, we have an over-population crisis and we DO NOT have enough resources to support ourselves. which would you rather happen? have the kids to work and support their family (and themselves) or the parents to kill their kids because there just TOO MANY of them. ah yes, just stop making babies? cant help ourselves because we're too fertile! these families have NO CHOICE! if they did, their kids WILL be in school and have better jobs.

what do you do to help anyway?

oh, asians are invading "your" country. taking away your jobs. most asians do jobs that YOU JUST WONT FUCKING DO! we do your shits, be grateful.

right.

i wouldnt mind such comment from an activist, but an arse pissed on his rusty nails?!?!

pffffffts!