yellow

DISCLAIMER : i am colour blind. this post is meant for person(s) who makes colour a reason to differentiate human from another.

" there's a reason why they have one child per family policy in asia, because they're too many of them .. " [ some ang-moh, 2006 ]

right. i cannot agree more. yellow. brown. billions of us!

" .. sweat shops .. " [ same ang-moh, 2006 ]

right.

apparently, we (asians) make too many babies till we cant support such a big family that we have to send the kids out in the big cruel world earning money.

get your facts right BUDDY!

do this math. say they're 400 million pregnant "asian" women this year, how many babies will be produce? 400 friggin million. say these batch of asian women are to produce only 1 baby in their life time, it still wont change the fact tht they ARE gonna be alot of us.

i just dont get why "asians" are so much of a problem. apparently, we own the smallest penis among the male species, we have the least of physical sex, and we're still your biggest worry?

WHAT THE FUCK?!?!

sweat shops. right. we're POOR! yes, we have an over-population crisis and we DO NOT have enough resources to support ourselves. which would you rather happen? have the kids to work and support their family (and themselves) or the parents to kill their kids because there just TOO MANY of them. ah yes, just stop making babies? cant help ourselves because we're too fertile! these families have NO CHOICE! if they did, their kids WILL be in school and have better jobs.

what do you do to help anyway?

oh, asians are invading "your" country. taking away your jobs. most asians do jobs that YOU JUST WONT FUCKING DO! we do your shits, be grateful.

right.

i wouldnt mind such comment from an activist, but an arse pissed on his rusty nails?!?!

pffffffts!

gay

"get pissed, pick chicks up and dissapoint them after!"

mission wednesday.

i got pissed. 8 jaggies [Ye`Gheez] actually broke our last week's record by 1! 2 Gin Tonics. countless smirnoff twists.

right.

picked chicks up? didn't EXACTLY picked any up, they came to me. HAH. me and my dancing skill, and my sweet talks, though honest with a slight twist of corniness. HAH.

right.

didn't dissapoint all of them.

brunette 1 : she got turned off because she thought the chick a mate introduced to me was my girlfriend. HAH. dissapointed chick number 1.

hollie : she got turned off when i whispered to her that i was gay while we were dirty dancing one another. HAH. dissapointed chick number 2.

gingerhead : she stepped into my zone, rubbed her thigh between my legs, twirled around me, her fingers always pointing at me, her eyes gazed with such intense, her tongue worked to wet her lips ... i didn't even get a chance to SAY anything cause she was always dancing, and twirling .. and jumping .. and spinning .. I GOT DISSAPOINTED FOR NOT DISSAPOINTING HER! dissapointed josh number 1.

2 : 1. i win! mission completed.

i should stop playing "oh, he's gay!", cause i realized i DONT have gaydar. for those who are illiterate on homosexual 101, gaydar stands for gay-radar. HAH! instead, i should start playing "oh, he's straight!" at gay clubs! HAH!

right.

shit!

men cant shit and masturbate at the same time. or can they? can women? i wouldnt know cause i am not one! but MEN CANT shit and masturbate simultaneously. i wouldnt have said it if i havent done it!?!

hah.

i was sitting on the toilet one day, flipping through a print porn sitting on my left thigh with my rightie intensely riding my pole and then the sudden need to poo-poo rushed over. i was near masturbation euphoria but the bliss of "letting go" messed my priorities. so i shitted and killed the boner!

hah.

but IF you ever do it, and succeed, please enlighten me.

a weeks worth

im ass broke. 5 out of the 7 days of sprinkling periwinkle twinkle tinkle little magical dusts, im broke. 3 nights out of the 7 i was out doing some "hardcore" partying with the excuse of making up long lost partying times in adelaide. pffffts! im broke.

mom's probably taking her time to bank in the money, laughing her ass off thinking - "let him suffer a lil bit, see how hard it is to earn money ..."

yes mom, its HARD to earn money, so, yeah, hurry!! bank em!

pfffts.

find a job. yeah, pfffts!

so okay, im a lazy ass bastard! you still like me dont you? hah.

a couple from melbourne asked for my number last friday night to go dance with them sometimes, just because i can shuffle. had a little shuffle session with them at Tonic. hah. cool, but no phone call yet.

some chick, asked if she could dance with me wednesday nitght, but "someone" came around me and took her attention away! caucibai Mark! hah. just because she mistook you for Dino! pffffts.

STARBUCKS just opened on rundle mall today! woohoo! havent had the time to check it out. wait, i did have the time, but mark wasn't to keen on over-priced all-american franchise. i just wanted to check if they make green tea frappe! pffffts! i'll sneak in tomorrow.

i've got reece's number! woohoo! right, totally random. he's got bexta's number! woohoo! i've been promised a new years eve house party in sydney over looking darling harbour! its either that or mark's birthday party aka. new years eve party ala moulin rouge. hah. reece's or mark's? hah. haha. decision. decision.

im broke. mom said always to remind her, but when i do, she gets mad and says "you think money easy to earn ha?!" pffffts. pffffffffffffffffffffts. now i think id rather have the miri life, work at the cafe - do nothing - earn the money and PARTY! hah. without the old folks around of course!

i need a digi cam. still envy inghui's. and i regret NOT taking her scale with me. hah. we dont have one at home (adelaide). hah.

gay bar this friday! hah. wanna see how hot i am in their market. i probably rank low! hah.

im broke! if you see me mom, beg her to send money! hah.

dose me soon.

emo!

" to the land i teared for, i am home,

to the land i suffered for, i am home;

why my cry, a rivers flow,

why my pain, still blossom grow? "

- Josh.Nwn.

i left adelaide feeling this way, and i am back feeling the same. did i miss something or is it just my damn fucked up whirlwind of emotions?

i dreaded every moment i was in miri, to meet people you grow having a level of intimacy with just made the painful journey bittersweet. the greatest thing was not the fact i had fun with these people (i do!), but to slowly gain life's gem - knowledge.

i can't say the 4 months i was in miri a regret because it wasn't to exist, i may not be the person i am today.

how am i different now? self discovery is still on the go, but i FEEL different.

i have come to realise that people i get attached to always come to a departure, or me leaving.

adam, flew to The UK, after a year or so since we met. jill, moved to kuching after half a year or so we met.i came here (adelaide) after a year or so i met nicole. sabun and dodo, flew back to singapore after a year or so we met. i left after 4 months or so when i got close to tingang, ollie and inghui. and suddenly mark has had his life directed to sydney ...

can i blame life for having such a toll? or do i blame theirs?

to scream aloud "NOT FAIR!!", but when has life EVER been fair?

to cry out "WHY!?!", but when has life EVER answer?

i am also a helpless romantic. the couples lovey dovey thingy hasn't been gracious to me either.

do i ever complain? DO I? i keep it to myself. no need persisting it out in the open when to shut up is more fruitful. wait, now its out in the open! hah.

oh, dose me up!

take me home

a battle unceasing,

a war persisting;

rivers of blood,

echoes of wretchedness;

an endless yield.

how delicate a vigor,

how fragile a will,

how intoxicated a passion;

faith strives in endeavor,

hope prevails i n abidance.

take me home,

to genesis,

to eden's dusts;

the breath of wind's first,

the alpha,

the novelties.

memories tumultuos,

the approach of infinite lost;

to grasp so weak,

to seize so frail;

home, sine qua non.

[ a word of advice : if you dont get it, you DONT get it. quit trying. just be grateful you're literate enough to R.E.A.D. ]

its a party life [ part III ]

too busy partying.

too fucked to do anything.

too messed up to think.

too busy.

too tired to write.

too lazy to have this done.

too torpid to give a damn.

too kepotien NOT to post this up.

too little many pics.

too short of ticking time.

Miri's Envy : The Pimps & The Pornstars Party

^The last remaining Pimps + Pornstars

^The last remaining Pimps + Pornstars II

^The last remaining Pimps + Pornstars III [ boys ]

^The Kanids Pimps + Pornstars [ Arth (sitted) + Tingang (smokin) + Josh (tonguey) + Ollie (topless)

^whoring the mirror [ Arth + Tingang + Josh ]

^whoring the mirror again [ Ollie + Tingang + Josh ]

^my pussy and i

^The Kanids [ Tingang + Josh + Arth ]

^chun chicks aka. pornstars [ aint giving names away .. ]

and i quote, " you're still partying? "

still? who's stopping? can't stop me now can you? heh.

its a party life.

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read also :

its a party life [ part I ]

its a party life [ part II ]